What a glorious day! I think the location had a lot to do with it. Also, the love of friends, old and new. The pleasant surprise of all the love I was shown. Unexpected, welcome, and one that drew me in. Thank you God.
Woke to an unexpected dream, and then the thoughts, how unexpected too- the memory retains instances in all their colors. The color of trauma when it happened, anger when it was a few years gone. Grief, sadness and a strong sense of injustice when one puts distance that time creates, into the equation. And now, just a blip in the miles and miles that have taken me further and further away from it.
Living in the moment, it’s all good but it’s not without cost. It wreaks havoc on decision making. Living in the moment means rewarding good behavior with forgiveness. It also means ‘forgetting’ or rather allowing bad behavior to go unpunished, or in my case, tolerating beyond tolerance.
We choose life, or we choose to live life, one day at a time. Thankfully, my constants are my life’s greatest blessings. They are my greatest wealth, and the rewards of all the unthinkable I have lived through. Suddenly, life reminds me to focus in gratitude, and I’m listening. In the past, not so much. But then, then, it would not have been right either. That’s the sign of being Alive.
Veenu Banga
05/27/2024
11:39pm.
