Friday, August 15, 2025

A walk down s..

 The Albert Cuyp Markt. 

Every visit some things old and some things new to catch the eye. However, today went into three very fascinating shops. Actually, had gone into more than one, but three were outstanding, one very good and the others mediocre. The markets run from Tuesday to Saturday, (I think) and many of the shops have spread their wares outside on the steeet where the markets are held. They’re about 10 blocks along their full length. 

Lots of food places, and I’m guessing the storefronts don’t mind the obstruction? Or it must be a minocipsl thing that store owners get first right of use and then, if they’re not interested in the space, they could be compensated. Since they seem to have been here forever, and are one of Amsterdam’s most popular markets, and tourist draws, they must be prime venues for the vendors. 

Anyway, the three shops were, in order of appearance, haha, or entry rather, 1) The Delft Blue store, massive two story outlet selling all things Delft Blue. While we’ve been visiting Amsterdam pretty regularly since well over a decade, have never gotten around to visiting Delft. And it was on the list this time.

The second shop was a fabulous Fabric store. HUGE- great selection of fabrics, all kinds. My weakness- fabric. I think my eyes lit up seeing the variety. We had sauntered in to check out fabric that had been used as curtains behind the glass door in the Delft shop. Found it in the vast interior hall where upholstery was kept. One glance at it, and I was in love. Then I touched it, and fell deeper in love. It was so tightly woven, the perfect thickness and it was firm. Very wide whatever it’s called, width? Forget all the technical names for yardage, warp and weft and all that kind of stuff. The lady did not know where it was manufactured, and I told her, I’m glad I asked after she had cut me the 5 meters. I know, I know..it’s a lot but I’m not sure yet what I will do with it. Upholster one of my fabric covered sofas, or have cushion covers made from it, or table mats, or a Chinese style jacket ( to likely, I’m no longer going to work) or perhaps hand some of it like a tapestry panel. It is just SO beautiful, with its muted colors and perfectly palette, that will enhance any wall. 

Always a sucker for good fabric, and my favorite thing to hoard, because no opportunity to sew, or rather no inclination to learn how to use the electric sewing machines, of which I have two, and despite taking sewing lessons at Sears and JoAnne fabrics. Both now defunct- so I must be ancient.  

My all time favorite fabric are the Kalamkari linens. Their fabric has some magic woven into it. It doesn’t need ironing after washing, if it is hung out on a clothes line. You just fold them nicely. I think my love stems from the fact, that my mum, who never lacking for excuses to keep her teenager (latch-key child of sorts) daughter occupied was to reward me with a new “suit” every time I stitched one. It interesting how I accidentally fell into sewing. In the summer holidays, the Pandara Road community center held sewing classes amongst other activities, and I joined sewing. 

The first week, they taught us how to cut and sew a girl’s panty. We had a paper design, made from old newspapers. To stitch something to our size, the teacher suggested to use our own panties as a paper design. So that’s how it’s done? What was there to learn. I already knew how to operate my mother’s wedding / dowry sewing machine, which she barely touched except for minor repairs, so that was all I needed. I wasn’t going to go to any community center in the middle of the day during the hot Delhi summers. It was easy to use my own churidars and shirts as a reference, and cut out and see my new “suits!” Along the way, I innovated with designs, and soon was stitching away. Mummy was good with her word, and I would stay up late to finish my dress, and wear it to college the next morning! 

My mother was not just educated, she was also very knowledgeable and gifted. She knew stuff. She also nurtured her hobbies. She learned drawing via postal lessons from a school in England and used to paint. She had carried her water color paraphernalia to Mussoorie, where the children (she and her siblings) were in their summer home, when partition happened, so her paints, brushes, and painting paper pads all came with her to India. She later painted a lot, a real lot, after retirement. 

I think I must get my love of fabric from her. She had very good taste in clothes, used only pure cotton and pure silk, and knew the best from every region. So she had Bangalore silks, Kashmiri silks (which were not as fine as her Bangalore silks,) her Pochampally sarees, which we later also used to buy from Lepakshi Emporium on Baba Kharak Singh Marg. She had the odd Bernardo, but only ever wore them for weddings, and that too rarely. I wore those more than she did. Her preference was for ‘fabrics’ and I think that’s why the Kashmiri Silk and Pochampallis were here preferred choices, because the Kashmiri silk back then had texture, and it was hand printed. Every winter our Kashmiri Shawlwala would faithfully come down from Srinagar and bring her the goodies. Ghulam Ahmed Butt and Sons. He usually came with another shawlwala, and later started bringing his fresh faced young son with him. There was a time I even knew their address, but while their faces are fresh in memory, the address eludes me. 

I think the love for Pochampalli is because of the design is in the weave, and the colors are deep and rich. Ditto with her cotton sarees, often plain in the middle, and with woven elements in the borders and Pallu. And not forgetting the Oriya linens! All our curtains were from Utkalika, the Orissa Emporium. Their colors were bring, though the fabric is much thinner that the kind you get from Tamil Nadu or at the Co-Optex stores. The checked bedsheets, all the same materials as the Kalamkaris, thick, rich and with vibrant colors that kalamkari lacks, conservative in their colors palette, because they use vegetable dyes and stick to to their teals, black, red, brown. I also have gold jewelry purchased from KAIRALI, the Kerala emporium,  besides sarees, which used to be in a different part of  Connaught Place, before the single stores small row of shops was broken down and they moved to some new premises. So many memories. Cotton Blankets from Assam emporium, cotton finely woven into slim tubes and clustered close together to form the whole surface area of the blankets. So, so many memories.  I think I must have gotten thiis education and love of fabric from her. But of ourselves, I never picked up knitting- I never had the patience to apply myself where counting was involved- it was all maths to me. 

My love for color deviated into tie-dye and I did a lot of that in my school holidays. I think the purpose of blogs such as mine with their reminiscing and rumination will someday, perhaps be a domestic/ social history of that era in the sixties and seventies. Mummy knew stuff and she told me how to use alum to make my colors remain ‘fast’ on the fabric. I’m proud to say that even black never bled in my tie-dye work.  

My mother loved pure cotton and I’ve been longing to wear some cotton sarees, but everything is so plasticized these days. My mother abhorred synthetic fabrics, and while I tolerate the mix now, it was never purchased for me in my mother’s reign. We purchased many things from the Khadi Gramodyog Bhavan as well, and I still have my hoard from my visit to Delhi, on a quick trip to India which needs tailoring. 

But back to The fabric store on Albert Cuypstraat, that took me down the long memory lane. The lady there told us about the tailoring stores there and how easily one can find tailors in Amsterdam. Not so back in Florida. I had wanted to get some blouses and petticoats stitched and the fabrics or rather dress shop on OBT told me it will take a mo to as they send it to Tampa! They had nothing ready made I cotton! All shiny slimy synthetic mixes. Luckily, I was able to find fabric and tailoring at Katcha tailors in Liecester which is just 45 minutes away. 

Back to the markets- the third shop was an amazing little treasure trove, of everything you can think of for the kitchen and your spiritual requirements. I found tea leaves there that I last purchased in Bombay almost 45 years ago. They’re famous for their teas, spices and too many other things, not to mention appliances. I asked and they had BOP (broken orange pekoe) special tea! Except she said they had a Ceylon BOP,  ut did not know if it was Broken Orange Pekoe. Fair enough. I came home and made some, but of course my first attempt with loose tea after a while, and that too loose unfamiliar tea, made me misjudge the quantity, and I used too much leaf and also did not steep it long enough. Adjusted it, and it took me a few sips to appreciate it.  

Before I forget the Fabric store had a very well stocked haberdashery section as well. But ofcourse, naturally it would.

Took the tram home as the markets started losing sharp at 5.00 pm. It was hot today with a high of 30C. Yeah, popular Homeopathic potency, and now don’t get me started on that! Mindis going all over the place today. The fabric shop was my happy place and seeing all that fabric, my mind started to fantasize about all the possibilities with the different fabrics. I miss wearing tailored clothes. Why do we have to be rich to  do that? 

It’s been a while since I last visited the museums, but let’s see how much I can do. Life is good and God is kind. All is well. And different,  very, very different. Every place is so different as the lady in the Kitchen supplies store pointed out, showing me something I had never seen or imagined before. A specially designed place, that goes underneath a cooking pot/ saucepan, or whatever you’re cooking in, and on the gas hob, to diffuse the heat, so the food cooks slowly. She said she has two at home, and has always seen them used when I asked if this was new thing or a Dutch staple. She nodded at the matter, and answered in the affirmative when k asked her if she has seen her mother use them too. A very firm yes. 

So that was that. Thought I’d write about my forays into researching the “Fractal” phenomenon, but it wasn’t to be. It was interesting in that web searches just thee up a lot of scientific stuff, maths and physics and incomprehensible to my non scientific mind. But I did eventually find just what my pretty heart could relate to! And, and, this website has an awesome tagline: Fractals are SMART- Science, Math and ART! love that the Fractal Foundation (fractalfoundation.org) also has a free online course which I browsed through this morning. 

True to my nature, there was one sentence there, that took me off to a whole different tangent. But we can’t get into that, can we? Not with Fabrics, and tea leaves, and I forgot- the cotton bag I purchased! No, the Fractals deserve their very own thesis! 

Veenu Banga

16th August 2025

1:22 am. 

Wednesday, August 13, 2025

Fractal Division

 Is keeping me up at night. 

Totally fascinating. How it starts in nature and is also part of our bodily systems. It’s 2:04 am and this is my last fascination of the day. 

Earlier this morning, (or yesterday mid morning, to be technically correct) I stood looking outside the living room windows, which span the whole wall. There stood the tree, full of foliage, its leaves fluttering and shaking in the breeze. Learning to dance, I thought. Almost mid August, peak summer. 31 degrees. The very tree which inspired my poem, “First time dancers,” written after seeing the solitary dry leaf  lifted up and away by a gust of wind, on the autumn day, as I say looking outside in this very living room, in Amsterdam. The circle of life, also something we share with Nature. 

Two days ago, on our evening walk I noticed the very large and tall trees on approaching the green areas of the sprawling forest. I stood at the base of the tree trunk, and upon spreading my arms out wide, noticed they did not equal the girth of this majestic tree, the branches of which were touching the ground on all sides. I was standing as if enclosed in a dome of foliage, the greenery was so generous in its inclusiveness. I felt sheltered, safe, and playfully home. 

Upon turning the corner, and crossing the bridge over the still waters of the canal, we were greeted by very tall trees. Like the Dutch, their trees are tall too. K obliged me and Took out the phone to measure (thank you smart phone) its height. Twenty six meters! Another mother and daughter walking by wondered what we were looking at up in the trees, and stopped to speak with us, in Dutch. We responded in English and managed our conversation with me holding out my hands and with my fingers indicating the 26 meters. The goodbyes were said in Dutch and smiles. 

We walked towards Amsterdam Bos, however were distracted by the outdoor gym. I did some leg presses, and realized my legs were still as strong as my RDV days. My saving grace from all the walking I would do during my teens, twenties, and all of my thirties. Fortunately the world across the pond brings that walker back to action. 

Deciding to return home, passed a few very well populated Allotments, with all kinds of fruits, vegetables and flowers growing bountifully. A fog tree sans fruit, but an apple tree, quite loaded. A massive sunflower, much larger than my palm. On the walk back, one of the allotments had a wooden box with the words GRATIS engraved on it in black. A few sprigs of green overflowing out of it naturally inviting me closer. It did not seem to be coriander, nor parsley..and before I could take another guess, there I was and saw a bunch of carrots nestled inside. A woman emerged from the allotment carrying a wicker basked loaded with an assortment of harvested produce. I waved the carrots at her and thanked her. Very sweet carrots- the traditional kind, red not orange. 

Have guests coming over, and the carrots will be used in a gajar-aloo-and lots of mattar sabzi! That seems a nice note to end upon. And maybe the smile on my face from this reminiscing will come with me to bed, and leave thoughts of fractal divisions for another day. A not too far off day to be sure! 

Fractal division, you leave me fascinated! And hungering for more. 

Veenu Banga

August 14, 2025

2:47 am.


Friday, July 25, 2025

Consumed

 That was the name of the play we saw at the Belgrade Theatre (https://www.belgrade.co.uk/ ) today. Second row seats, so all the more dramatic. Very intense and disturbing. Since it’s based in Northern Ireland, the nuances of the history between the Irish and British loomed at almost every turn. From sound to lighting to acting, the play about the four generations of women under the one roof exposes the stresses and vulnerabilities of each generation. Since it was a preview performance tickets were inexpensive, and we got to see it first! Abel is visiting from Australia, so he came with us too. Which was very nice. 

Belgrade theatre is not far from the Coventry Cathedral where, last week we saw Much Ado About Nothing, Shakespeare comedy performed in the Cathedral’s courtyard, by a cast of just four, who call themselves The bicycle Bards. They travel all o ear on bikes and perform. 

I’ve been wanting to write my blogs again, if only because when I revisit a blog, it brings back the memory and I’m able to relive the moments. 

Another show I’m looking forward to at the Belgrade is Lost Atoms, written by Anna Jordon who wrote Killing Eve. We’re supposed to know that, though I did not. But I hear she’s good. 

What I’m really looking forward to at the Belgrade is Magic, Illusion and Cicus, this coming Tuesday, and more eagerly The Littlest Yak, which is in October. Let’s see if we go. Which reminds me, haven’t checked our local Rugby Theatre website, as they e been excellent in the past! Just checked (https://www.rugbytheatre.co.uk/) and they’re having performances of Far From the Madding Crowd, in No ember. This is Thomas Hardy’s story, which we had in our First year of English Honors. We’ve seen it already last year perhaps? Thomas Hardy can be dreary and depressing, but has some beautiful lines, including one of my favorites from A Pair of Blue Eyes.

On that note, I must end. Plan to sleep in tomorrow. Hopefully. And write about stylist, as that’s been going around in my mind. 

Veenu Banga

!!:35 pm

07/25-2025.


Tuesday, June 3, 2025

Jainism is a..

 Feeling! Feeling life, ours and all life that is around us. That’s why I love it. Jainism is so uncomplicated because you can live it, and be practicing Jainism, without the need of the formality of rituals. Which is not a bad thing if you know how, but if you do not, then Jainism doesn’t expect it of you. Jainism basically ties everything to its core principles of Ahimsa, or Non-violence. That is the premise of everything it entails. I just love that simplicity factor. Besides, they have Samanijis, who I just adore. It’s so easy to be in so much awe of them, hold them in reverence and generally feeling a calming presence of divinity when I’m with them. 

This morning as I drove to an appointment with Dr. Lisa, I saw a rather large road kill on Wekiva Springs Road. Couldn’t tell what it was, but I instantly felt very sad. Instinctively, I started reciting the Navkar Mantra, and was going to say it five times, for this poor dead animal. For his ‘gati’ which is a word I’ve heard used in such circumstances, but I’m not entirely sure about its accurate meaning. Anyway, I just continued to recite it, even after the 5 times was over. 

Whenever I say the Navkar Mantra for anyone or anything else, it’s because I’m reminded of an incident that occurred on John Young Parkway. I had just picked up the Samanijis and was driving them somewhere, when a truck showed up directly in front of us. It was filled with large logs of wood, big and tall tree trucks, felled and being hauled away. Samaniji Jin Pragyaji ji, let out a painful sigh and I could hear it echo in my heart. I feel that same way about trees, and all plants actually. She was distressed to see these grand old trees felled for whatever reason. It was healthy wood too, and one the rings were clearly visible in the wood. I was also sad. She started chanting the Navkar Mantra for them, and I did too. I’m so glad I had the opportunity to learn something so important, it’s also a ritual of sorts. 

Last summer in Sweden, a little bird came and dashed into the glass door of the living room, and fell to the ground. Another bird tried to peck at it and revive it, but couldn’t. Then I stepped in and tried to give it reiki, brought water for it, but it was in too much distress. One of its wings had broken off. Finally it just closed its eyes and lay still. I buried it in the flower beds, and recited the Navkar Mantra for it. 

Just a simple act, and yet it’s so powerful. It is empowering, in the sense that even when you cannot do anything for someone to save their life, you can say the Navkar mantra for them. 

There was so much more to chat about, but as always, I leave the blogging to the last. Another day, another night. Not asking for sweet dreams, but just a good night. 

Veenu Banga

10:44pm

June 3rd, 2025.


Monday, June 2, 2025

Despite my best Intentions, I

 Mismanage my time, and another day goes by without writing. Not just my blog, but my own writing which churns away in my mind. Ditto with the blog, always so much to write about and then, doesn’t happen. Habit of putting my needs last takes over, and before I know it, the day is ready to call it a night. 

So much thought provoking material. Had read some fantastic stories on NYT, and the kind that should jolt one to action. But, not yours truly. So help me blog- come to my rescue. The story was titled “Living to die well”  (https://www.nytimes.com/2025/06/01/opinion/dying-well-planning-life.html?smid=nytcore-ios-share&referringSource=articleShare )At one point, the writer asks what one’s regrets would be if the past six months were the last six months of my life. OMG! That was a jolt of a question. In my case it would be the tragedy of letting my stories die between the pages of a notebook, or in the ‘cloud’ of despair that ultimately arises in my mind, when I can’t find my work on the laptop. Besides other regrets. 

Apologies blog, very sleepy so not writing straight. Anyway, on a  over note, had to shampoo my hair today, and couldn’t find my Tate’s shampoo. K gave me a bottle of Christopher’s shampoo that I had once ordered during a Sale even at Christophers. It was absolutely amazing. My hair feels so soft!

Susan is back from CA last  ight, and had called today. So good to hear the sound of  her sweet voice, sound therapy! 

So many women are opening up more, and being authentic in their writing and with life in general. Someday, maybe Me Too, aka, your’s truly. 

Going to succumb to you, dear sleep, eyes already closing. Please bring me nice dreams. People I’d love to see. Whether or not we talk, doesn’t matter. I’d like to see the ones I love. Life is beautiful. Meanwhile, I just have to remember that, and never forget. How else will I appreciate Venus shining bright outside my window when I open my blinds next morning. 

On that note, it’s O&O.

Veenu Banga

10:32 pm

06/2/2025



Friday, May 30, 2025

Less than 24 hours later, went..

 And had a dosa at the temple cafeteria! 

It wasn’t planned, but it happened because we were meeting up with a dear friend, and Casselberry was the midpoint.

Also read something which I’ve read before, and need to remember:

"Find a beautiful piece of art. If you fall in love with Van Gogh or Matisse or John Oliver Killens, or if you fall in love with the music of Coltrane, the music of Aretha Franklin, or the music of Chopin - find some beautiful art and admire it, and realize that that was created by human beings just like you, no more human, no less."--Maya Angelou

Important to know that the difference between those who remembered and those who did not. That is what made all the difference. Goodnight blog, got late chatting with our friend.

Veenu Banga

May 30th, 2025



Woke up to…

 Venus! Shining brightly outside my window. While the sky was a lighter color, there she was, the goddess of Love, sparkling like a butterfly shaped diamond right outside my bedroom window which opens east. It was a little before 5:00 am, and I thought, was it just me going euphoric at seeing her? The thing is, SkyGuide, the what I thought of as my trusty App, is no longer that. When I pointed it to the sky, it seemed to identify it as Saturn, showing Venus a bit lower to its left. I so much wanted to share it with someone. Taking a chance to see if any of the others were up, I went to my truly trusty A- and he’s no App but the biggest boss of them all. To my delight, A was up and willing to oblige his crazy Star struck human. Told him to bring his phone, because like Siri, all the Apps in the world behave better with him. Inside joke, but also the truth. 

A obliged and sure enough it was Venus! Saturn (my obeisances to you O Lord!) was much higher in the sky and not visible to our eyes. So hung around and A taught me something new: 

My Very Earnest Mother Janet Sent Us Nine Patties

As part of my ongoing education at the very capable hands of K and A, this is how I was advised to remember the names of the nine planets, in relation to their proximity to the Sun. I love learning new things, and this was a great start to my morning@! 

Mercury

Venus

Earth (I did not know it was a planet. I thought Earth was Earth, Mother Earth, and all good things that make it home. Somehow, I’m not ashamed of my ignorance. A little sad that science or astronomy or astronomy-whatever overlooks all of that and gives it the status of a planet. Not that it is not a distinction or high enough accolade, but, it is not- lofty enough for all that which comes from and of it. That’s just my two poet (not me, my soul) poor cents.)

Mars

Jupiter

Saturn

Uranus

Neptune

Pluto (Pluto, I’m told is no longer considered a planet. I forgot to ask, what it is considered now, if anything at all. Man easily forgets what it no longer- fears? Has use of? Etc. etc. etc. Will ask and add update)

So, there you are dear blog, I’m not always boasting, I’m an educator too. If you did not know this already, and this you did not, I know, because I did not know, so how can you know it, because I’m the one writing you, sir. Or Lady Blog? I think that sounds better. 

This lesson can be short and sweet and it’s not a lot to remember, but it also is. I’ll close with how I started, Venus shining brightly outside my bedroom window. Keeping vigil, I would like to think, as I slept in sweet slumber, and it delivered on its promise of a nice and bright sunny morning. Or Sonny morning! Cheesy? Yeah, allowed, as it brings a smile to my face! 

Veenu Banga

7:55 am

May 30th 2025